Grace, Mercy, Forgiveness

I have been known from time to time to speak my mind and more often than not it was a HUGE mistake!  I'm one of those people who...let things build and Build and BUILD till I blow a fuse. It takes me entirely to long to forgive.

I fail a lot at showing others Grace, Mercy and Forgiveness!! I harbor I'll feelings and they feed my negativity. I struggle and maybe you do to with CONTROL, I feel like if I can only be in control it will be OK.  How wrong I am, when I take over I make a mess of it!  A BIG, UGLY, HURTFUL, MESS.

Then after I've had my "ME" the HOLY SPIRIT moves and I am convicted of my sin and I know what I have to do.... ask Forgiveness, first from the one I have offended and then again from my Heavenly Father!
and sometimes I hate to say "ME" rears it's ugly head again and what I thought I had forgiven resurfaces and again I have to surrender it.

I have read the story of the Israelite people in the old testament and as I was reading I couldn't believe how hard headed these people were that they would see God's miracles, his works and experience Him and then turn around and Sin and God would show GRACE, MERCY, AND FORGIVENESS! This process did not just happen once but over and over and over. The Israelite people though forgiven had consequence for their sin. Just as I have consequence for mine! He shows me I am just like those Hard Headed Israelite people.  God shows Through His actions how I am put in situations that I need to reflect Christ and show his grace, mercy and forgiveness over and over and over.


I struggle with sin, I don't want to be "ME" and I know I am not always where I need to be in my relationship with Christ. But, I LOVE him! I'm His! And despite the "ME" I want to do what HE wants me to do.  Even after I sin, and I am struggling with it! I am so glad that His Spirit moves and I'm convicted because I want to please Him more than anything.

“If you look at the world, you'll be distressed. If you look within, you'll be depressed. If you look at God you'll be at rest.”

― Corrie ten Boom

My Boys

Be on your guard stand firm in the faith be men of courage be strong 1 Corinthians 16:13

I pray over my boys that they with stand firm in their faith and be mighty men of God, that they will seek His will for their lives.

My boys mean so much to me, I can't even begin to put into words how much!  I am not one of those mother's who shuts her eyes and refuses to believe that her boys do no wrong. My rug-rats are your typical little boys who struggle with sin in their lives and have their own thorns to lay down. I am not naive to think my precious little darlings are "angles".  They are not Bad boys with good moments they are Good boys with bad moments. I am proud when I see Christ like behavior come from them.

 I never understood, until I had children of my own, how my momma could say she didn't love one of her children more or less she loved all of us, but you love each one differently. You love them for who they are!

My oldest son, he definitely has your typical "Older Sibling Syndrome", He is confident in himself, he wants to lead, he is so intelligent, learning comes very easy to him. He is protective. He wants to do right and please. He uses his manners.  He hides a softer side to himself and on occasion only shows those closest to him his vulnerability.

My middle son, has a tender heart.  He is your gentle giant, He faces everything head on with full force. Everything and yes I mean Everything is approached as a full contact sport...even sleeping. He faces the world with no fear. He is kind and generous.

My youngest, can make me laugh in the midst of a storm, is my ray of sunshine, brings joy and laughter, he is a stinker, he is my cuddle bug, still let's me know I am his bestest momma. Gives big hugs and sweet kisses.

I love my boys so much, they are truly a gift. 

Family

What can I say.......I have one!  I, Carrie, have been married for 14 working on 15 years to my Honey Bun, Chris!  We have three, amazingly wild, very much boy,  boys, Noah, Keaton and Bryan. We have two dogs Opal & Zeus and one cat Dr. O'mally. We have good days and bad, we laugh, get on each others nerves and try being as "Normal" a family as we can be.  We make mistakes, argue, fight, and Love each other through it.

Being a lady, who's idea of a "fun" time is drinking Starbucks and wondering through Hobby Lobby for 3 hours, I sometimes find it difficult to connect with the men in my life.  They like the nasty, the dirty and the disgusting and the more of each the better, it makes their "fun" time more enjoyable.  However,  I usually go with them on one of their "fun" times and ask "Why am I doing this?" it's simple, I go because I don't want to be left out,  I go because deep down It's important to them, I go because I love them and want to show them how much. I wish I could say I do this all in the correct spirit, but sometimes, I don't. I start out doing my best, trying to enjoy what they are but then I find my spirit turning to complaining, whiny and frumpy. I don't always make their "fun" time fun. I can make all the excuses in the world, but I have to ask myself  "how is this showing them I love them? How is complaining, whiny and frumpy showing them their important?  It's simple...it doesn't.  I often have to ask my Lord and my men for forgiveness for having a bad attitude.  They show me how to be Christ like in extending Grace, Mercy and Love by forgiving a momma and wife who sometimes doesn't have the reflection of Christ as she should.

We are a family who tries to reflect Christ, we don't always succeed but we look to Jesus as our example.
I am so Glad I am covered by his Grace....I need to learn to extend HIS Grace to others.

1st Blogg EVER!

I have never considered blogging, I am a horrible speller, my grammar and sentence structure are seriously something to be questioned.  But here I am giving it a shot, at the encouragement of a dear friend who believes in me. Will I make mistakes....YOU can count on it.  But I promise you will get me, my thoughts, my ideas, my hopes, my dreams, my loves, and my fears.  It might not be very exciting to you, but it's me putting myself out there raw and open and I have NEVER done anything like this. Am I scared? You bet your blue knickers, but I want to try something different. 

One of the first confessions about this CRAZY lady is....  I build walls!  I build them high and strong and I don't like anyone trying to climb them, peer over them  and I might turn into something really nasty if  someone would dare try and take a stone off my wall.  I don't like to get personal, I have a hard  time even sharing with you what I am having for Lunch and yes I am even guilty of ignoring the occasional door greeter who has asked me if I needed any help. I find it very difficult to trust anyone.  However,  I am so thankful God is not leaving me this way! I am learning to tear down my walls and even let others help. I am learning it's O K that not everyone thinks a Peanut Butter and Banana Sandwich is not the most awesome Lunch to have. And that If I place my trust in God I don't have to be afraid of anything else. Do I still have "ME" moments, yes I do and God gently and sometimes dramatically reminds me and I choose again to lay "ME" aside and follow Him.

So, as a person of high intelligence (which I'm sure you are...your hear reading my first blog) you might be asking your self "Why is this Socially Introverted Person doing this?"  Because maybe, just maybe in one small way I might be a blessing to you. And because strange as it sounds I like people! 

 "When a train goes through a tunnel and it gets dark, you don't throw away the ticket and jump off. You sit still and trust the engineer." Corrie TenBoom Quotes