Grace, Mercy, Forgiveness

I have been known from time to time to speak my mind and more often than not it was a HUGE mistake!  I'm one of those people who...let things build and Build and BUILD till I blow a fuse. It takes me entirely to long to forgive.

I fail a lot at showing others Grace, Mercy and Forgiveness!! I harbor I'll feelings and they feed my negativity. I struggle and maybe you do to with CONTROL, I feel like if I can only be in control it will be OK.  How wrong I am, when I take over I make a mess of it!  A BIG, UGLY, HURTFUL, MESS.

Then after I've had my "ME" the HOLY SPIRIT moves and I am convicted of my sin and I know what I have to do.... ask Forgiveness, first from the one I have offended and then again from my Heavenly Father!
and sometimes I hate to say "ME" rears it's ugly head again and what I thought I had forgiven resurfaces and again I have to surrender it.

I have read the story of the Israelite people in the old testament and as I was reading I couldn't believe how hard headed these people were that they would see God's miracles, his works and experience Him and then turn around and Sin and God would show GRACE, MERCY, AND FORGIVENESS! This process did not just happen once but over and over and over. The Israelite people though forgiven had consequence for their sin. Just as I have consequence for mine! He shows me I am just like those Hard Headed Israelite people.  God shows Through His actions how I am put in situations that I need to reflect Christ and show his grace, mercy and forgiveness over and over and over.


I struggle with sin, I don't want to be "ME" and I know I am not always where I need to be in my relationship with Christ. But, I LOVE him! I'm His! And despite the "ME" I want to do what HE wants me to do.  Even after I sin, and I am struggling with it! I am so glad that His Spirit moves and I'm convicted because I want to please Him more than anything.

“If you look at the world, you'll be distressed. If you look within, you'll be depressed. If you look at God you'll be at rest.”

― Corrie ten Boom